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Sun, 19 Jun 2005 19:32:42 GMT

Addie Hemmen
73 Rivers End Dr.
Seaford, DE 19973

Caroline Eisen
Camp Wicosuta
21 Wicosuta Drive
Hebron, NH 03241

bunkmail@campwicosuta.com

Trisha Conte
Forest Lake CAmp
P.O Box 67
Warrensburg, NY 12885

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Sun, 13 Feb 2005 23:39:17 GMT

i care so much about my friends and i know only a few of them care as much back for me. lindsay addie eleanor. thats why i miss eleanor so much she would never treat me the way some of my so called friends treat me.

last night sucked i know im a party pooper but it sucked i was upset and christine ignores me whenever matts around and laura and amanda just cared about the boys and i know i was cramping their plans but i would be with them every minute they were crying if it was me. i would run to their house if they asked me to. i would do anything to make anyone feel better, and i know eleanor would for me and i know lindsay and addie would too.

i feel like i care too much, and nobody else does. and i feel like ive become so sensitive to everything like i was in 5th grade and then i grew out of it.

ashleigh is so mean to me. she treats me like shit and im sick of it. i borrow her calculator i give it back and she denies that i give it back to her and then asks me to get her a new one. I GAVE IT BACK ASHLEIGH and now i have to buy her a new one or she'll hate me.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 19:55:02 GMT

im so sick of it everyone EVERYONE if eleanor was here she wouldnt treat me like this she would treat me like a real person

i call i call i call NO FUCKING ANSWER i asked if they are mad no of course not

people say that others are pretty and they lie and i hate you for it

why give people false hope

nobody cares EVER nobody i hate it why do i care? NOBODY ELSE FUCKING CARES

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 03:29:32 GMT

yesterday was fun. shopping with rachel lauren weidmuller sarah and emily schecter. they bought me a thong that i gave to amanda, and a shirt that i like and ill wear. rachel is so nice and so is lauren. sarah and emily are nuts. thank god emily went or else it would have been way awkward. thats was way fun. hung out with amanda and she came over FOR ONCE YESSAH AMANDA and me amanda and trish spray painted the garage and amanda wore my moms robe and it was cold but really fun. then sleepover at trishas and we stayed up late and just kept laughing i dont remember why.

snowboarding was good today, cute chairlift boy.

someone who i wont name, imed me saying i never im them when they never im me. nobody ims me. i always im people. and it makes me think does that mean they dont want to talk to me? i mean big deal they dont im you erin well you im them but maybe they dont want to im me.

im feeling really depressed. trishas always saying how she thinks this person is not that pretty or this person is really pretty and i seem to think that she is embarrassed by me at school and stuff cause im not pretty like annie or michelle or any of her other friends cause she doesnt talk to me unless i talk to her and it sucks cause i dont want my friends to not want to hang out with me cause im not pretty. i know im not pretty but that shouldnt be a reason not to hang out with me.

i really miss eleanor, and addie. i feel bad cause i dont miss amy too much, but i wasnt that close with her. im in a horrible mood

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 21:20:10 GMT

when your hair falls out, like just a strand or two think about it, if its longer than like 6 inches then its been with you for like more than a year! thats nuts! i never thought about it till now. you lose a peice of your hair oh big deal you know? YES BIG DEAL thats huge to me now cause you just lost like something thats been around for a year

sorry

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:06:46 GMT

i had a great christmas except for it didnt seem like christmas thats alright then its not as hard the day after right? ha thats how i see it, cause i hate the day after christmas cause its soo lonely and you cant listen to christmas music cause you dont have that passion anymore when your singing it cause christmas is not for another year... but they just have to keep those damn commercials on about christmas eh?> GOSH hahah its cool though

i got loads of socks!!! and two vests, a realy cool scarf and hat from lucky, and some gift cards :) good stuff im so excited! and all those presents i got from school so it was a good christmas. it always is :)

so girls night in tonight, hah christine laura and trish are coming over. i was gonna have my usr buddies come like ashleigh sammy and carrie but i called ashleigh no answer i called carrie no answer and sammys with dominique i think soooooooo so much for that? so christine asked if we could hang out adn so did trish and im supposed to have dinner home so i invited them over. anyone else can really come were just gonna chill out and stuff shoudl be fun maybe play some christmas music

hhaa

amandas coming later. love her and her family too much.

it was sooooo cool last night i was talking to my dad and how amanda made a new years resolution to come up here to my house more often instead of me going to hers all the time so she can become tight with my parents like i did with hers. and he was like SWEET and hes really cool hes just never relaxed so when he is relaxed hes awesome. and he was sayign how he wants everyone to feel comfortable here and when he comes off as scary and intimidating to my friends he doesnt mean to he just wants my friends to know when he means business.. he means business. and i think thats fair. and hes like tell all your friends where the key is on our porch (its under my miniature sculpture of codie laying on a rock) so that they feel comfortable to come here whenever if its in the middle of the night or anything. and he was like if they ever get in a jam tell them to call and just hang out, this is a direct quote "...yeah ill prob tell their parents that they got in a jam but they have to make sure their safe first and the next day we'll work all that out."

last week my brother had just come from a party and i think zach galperin had dropped mike and his friend off at my house and mikes friend was drunk. and my dad was fine with him staying the night and he didnt tell the parents but he said if it happened again he would tell his parents the next day or something. so i thought that was really cool of him

so in conclusion guys feel comfortable coming to my house whenevre you know where the key is.

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 02:22:39 GMT

EHEaDEhea todays christmas eve im really happy with the stuff i got my mom this year i got her gloves slippers and a really soft nice robe cause her robe now is holy and really thin and not warm. yup so im really glad i got her good stuff, and my dad i got a coldplay cd since hes always like whose this when coldplay is playing :0 today was good this week was good

presents received so far:

carrie - hat
annie- something yet to come
lots of candy canes and candy
sarah- spongebob felt board thingy SOCKS
DYAANAAAA- trucker hat
sammy!!!- GREEDNadsf DAY dkaf shirt <3 soo hot cant wait to wear

:)

amanda has been great the past few weeks/month i can tell shes been putting in effort to talk to me and like be like HEY ERIN and i really really appreciate it and it makes me feel really good and like glad that were still good buddies but she seemed sad/mad last night when i baked her a cake........ she went to the swimmming party and i said im giving her anotehr present she'll get it when she gest back from the pasta party and so oooooooooooooo she got it and didnt say anything like she said OH THATS WHAT YOU WERE TALING ABOUT and thats it and i expected more i guess idk...... but i hope shes not mad at meeee ...im so jealous of laura. shes never been a good friend to me idk if she has to other people but not to me and i really dont like her but amanda and her a sooo tight and im so jealous cause i dont want amanda to leave and i dont like laura with amanda and amanda with laura i like amanda with me and im really really selfish btu i want her all to myself and i dont like how i act around laura im so different cause i dont like her but i do sometimes and she can be REALLY really really nice but she makes me so mad cause she breaks up with keith then from what christine has told me laura flirts with every guy on the swim team and then hooked up with one last night and is now going out with one of them and she told keith that she wasnt gonna have another boyfriend for a whileadskfjasdkfjasdklfjasdkfl why why does she do that to people im so jealous that she has that so i notice everything that goes on with her so i can critizize it and make her look bad i guess but iads fkajsdfkl i CANT STAND IT why? why adkfjadksfj whya sdfkjasdflk whyyyy

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh immmmm badddddd e stupdia dfjkeoiw9 dim sorry amanda this is just how i feel and i really like your family cause i want to buy them andddddddddddddddddddddkeeeeeeeeeeeeeadjfaksdfj

yeah

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:36:08 GMT

sammy updates a lot

soooooooo i was thinking about how someday when i hopefully get a boyfriend it will be in a while. cause i was wondering if im mature enough now to have a boyfriend where i can take shit from my uncles saying like "oh hows the boyfriend" or at the dinner table my mom being like giggling and happy cause i have a boyfriend or stuff like that i think that im not mature enough as to where i wont be embarrassed... and i feel like with the guys i like now such as ted and his abs i think id be really comfortable just walking up to ted in the hall and being like hey -hug- i love you bye you know? but like his abs no i wouldnt be comfortable maybe cause ive really never met him haha but like i was thinking about matt gins and if like for some reason we ever went out or soemthing i would be sooo comfortable its odd im not intelligent enough to put my thoughts into words but thas just how i feel

so adam and i are really good friends i would think on and off since like 7th grade and ive always had this odd attraction to him, idk why cause hes such a sweetheart to me and when he makes fun of someone and i give him the hairy eyeball for being mean he just laughs and is just so cute idk its weird and hes a good guy and hes funny but a real jerk to a lot of people and i dont know why im attracted to him

odd but were just buddies cuase hed never see me like that :)

wwoahahawhao made 60 bucks tonight OH YES ITS LADIES NIGHT

:)

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:11:45 GMT

so the other day i found out jenna and alyssa got back together, and its just amazing how kids accept that and i think its great cause your never going to get rid of it unless you totally block it out. its part of society today gays and lesbians and the more power to them for being proud thats a huge thing and i really have a lot of respect for them and for christie who proclaimed it publicly in like 7th grade

yeah i thought about that a lot today for some reason

i have been babysitting on saturday nights for the past 2 months almost and i have 200$ that i will use to visit eleanor I CANT WAIT AHHH

<3 ted....... FAINT

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 04:00:33 GMT

EBT706901: this weekend my cousin comes right? me and meg are best friends shes gonna be my maid of honor and all that jazz
skifree191: hha already
skifree191: a little planning ahead
EBT706901: oh ted i already have like 12 husbands picked out too
EBT706901: haha
skifree191: neat
skifree191: can i be one?

<3

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 01:23:25 GMT

SO brittany shes so nice and i really like her and people are so mean to her and it really bugs me casue they have no reason and gosh why? shes so sweet i really like her and i hope she likes me.

daddy put up the lights yesterday and all the candles around the house. EEE so exited christmas! we were listening to our usual christmas music and it was so cool and the fire and the giants were losing and it was great!

CLAUSE FEST Was really good not as good as green day but it was still good and yeah :)

so im thinking about christmas presents yeahhh i think im gonna make a bunch of plastic canvas stuff for people and give that to them just girls though cause i made the list for people im gonna make stuff for and its too many people to do the boys too so maybe some other holiday ill just do boys :)

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 19:41:22 GMT

soo last night sucked i had a greeeat thanksgiving weekend but it sucked last night cause i went to archer at like 7:10 cause jess was going early cause she had to leave early and so i went to see her but she couldnt go after all so i was just sitting there outside archer and this guy was harrassing me and saying all this junk and crap and like hey bbaby want some of this and he would grab his crotch and it totally wigged me out and i started to freak out cause thats never happened to me before and i know im blowing this out of proportion but i was sooo scared and i kept texting laura christine mary sarah and them to see if they were coming soon and they didnt get there till like 8:15 and i was soo scared i was crying and crap and i was just freaking out and it sucked cause i was so exxcited to see my friends after not seeing them for like 3 days and i got all dressed up my cousin picked out what i was going to wear and then i just had a horrible time and laura was the only one who cared and she listened to me and just stayed with me until i left and she was really nice and christine was like oh whatever you got harassed and that was a big deal to me it still is a big deal it scared the shit out of me cause im really sensitive to stuff like that as ive said in the past and i was sooo scared and thankfully laura calmed me down a lot

it was so odd everyone seemed like they werent themselves sarah was quiet and christine was like distracted and mary was quiet too and idk maybe i was just freaked out but laura was very nice and i really appreciate what she did

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:54:18 GMT

ok tonight i was thinking a lot a lot a lot a lot right? soooooooooo we made cards and sarah baked for robyn and it was fun and it was really nice of sarah to let us over and everyone made such cool stuff i hope she keeps my card...

riiiight so at matts tongiht i had fun i had emotional rollercoaster again cause i was really upset cause i hate hate hate hate hate movies with murder or killing or rape cause of my aunt cathy and thats another reason why i hate when kids are perverted cause they talk about rape and stuff and im sensitive to that

and i couple times in the movie scenes that happened i didnt want to watch so i looked away and christine seemed to get annoyed? and then i like fell to the ground and was like in between the couch and ottomin and matt and christine freaked and it wasnt like i was the only one talking or moving so were other people and they got mad at me and i felt bad and i just cried in the corner cause nobody stood up for me until sarah did later and i just thought of eleanor and how she would have stood up for me right away even though she had a huge crush on matt and she would have just been like you know what guys why dont you rewind the movie if you missed something chill cause thats jsut who she is and i miss that so goddamn much and it sucks

me sarah and christine had a couple conversations about laura. to me laura is frustrating because its just her personality to flirt... and its fun to flirt and its hard for her not to cause its just who she is right? but it hurts when she flirts with christines ex boyfriends or the guys christine maybe just got over right? that hurts and it hurts when she says she eggs the guys on when they are acting perverted and shes just like "OMG stop stop "in a playful way with a smile on her face as if shes dumb and doesnt know that the reaction she just gave them is the one they were looking for. and keith .. it makes me so mad and sad cause keith, poor keith. he was so good to laura and i know she didnt feel the same way about him and thats not her fault you dont have a say in who you have feelings for but she doesnt realize how lucky shes had it so many times with great guys that she just considers flings.. idk i guess you can say im sexually frustrated? nothing against laura sometimes you just cant help it and i know i havnt been very nice to her in the past but im beginning to like her more again and ive accepted that how she acts is really her personality and as sarah would say it people who do stuff like that are insecure, but who isnt insecure

really tell me... who isnt insecure? whether it be about how you look, your laugh, they size of your nose, or a personality trait. i dont know one person who is completely happy with themselves.

hahahahah yeah sexually frustrated as in im somewhat boy craaaaaaazy <3

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:42:24 GMT

ok so i was having a good day except my ear hurt again and

i was thinking about how cool technology is its so freaking amazing think about it right we started with a wheel and axel and weve just built up our civilizations and technology so much its just so mind boggiling and i wish that we wouldnt lose that cause nowadays kids are just focused on social things and stuff like that and that is impacted a lot by the media but nobody cares about ancient greece and what kind of contributions they had to todays technology and mind process it just is so amazing to me and i always think about stuff like that but never say it cause people always have odd reactions like "what?" "um whatever erin" and otherslike that so i dont ever bring it up but i know other people think about stuff like that too and i think about trees ...

just look at a tree that tree could be 50 yrs old for all you know it could have been the spot where someone had a first kiss OR where someone got a scrape trying to climb that tree, or someone caugh lime disease from a tick on the tree its just so crazy how much history ever peice of matter has

next time you see a rock. look at it closely and think where has this rock been was it once an ancient bolder during the time of dinosaurs? could be who would have thought

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:33:19 GMT

so i was thinking about ben

ben schuetz that is..... and over the summer he lost his dad. and i was just thinking how different life would be without my dad and how horrible it would be... as much as my brother and i fight with my parents were still so lucky and im so scared cause my dad is so pained and hes always so grumpy and i wish i could make him happier but hes always so grumpy except for like occasional times in the day and he works so hard and i hate how when peope judge you by your parents occupations and just cause my dad is a carpenter hes labeled a blue collar worker and they think of him as a plumber with his asscrack hanging out. no never my dad wears shoes that hes had since 1992 high white champion socks, a allendale tball shirt with holes in it and a really tight belt to keep his pants from falling down NO ASS CRACK THERE NO SIRRY and he just works so hard and gets up at 4:30 to do all the stuff he does and doesnt stop working till like 8 at night and hes also a coach and hes just there for me in sports not so much emotionally but he is there when i really need him and on holidays hes like "i know i dont say this enough but i really do love you" and its just so hard cause i see my cousin meg and her dad have such a great relationship and i wish i had that kind of relationship with my dad but i dont. i cant comlain im just so worried that im gonna get into a fight and just storm off like my brother did tonight and just leave and then my dad dies or something and its just hard

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 02:51:18 GMT

skifree191's away message lookin in your big brown eyes

TED<3

whose eyes is he describing?

FATE thats what i call FATE

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 02:37:31 GMT

so i had a really good day... my ear hurts but besides that everything is going very well... my cousin meg is doing a paper on albinos and she picked that just to amuse me.. and if you were wondering it amused me greatly!! trisha is being really cool ever since we got in like that one arguement when i felt like she hated me but were good now and i have so much fun with her again and its awesome... ****annie dibella has been having a not so good month so i applaud her and give her lots of props for being one of the most optimistic people i know. and mary OH CRAP i have to make a shirt for robyn gAHH ok well OH SHIT i have to decorate ashlee burts locker CRAAAAAP ok i gtg soon this is a short entry

WOW sorry guys i just forgot about those too things and i have to do okane hw and oh shit ok bye! sorry for cursing!!

TURKEY DAY 2 DAYS!

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 23:49:33 GMT

1. I miss somebody right now.
2. I watch more tv than I used to.
3. I love olives.
4. I love sleeping.
5. I own lots of books
6. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
7. I love to play video games.
8. I've tried marijuana.
9. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship .
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I've been told I have a nice butt. by liz scarinci I THANK YOU
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.- when i go out
20. I'm really, really smart.
21. I've never broken someone else's bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I love rain., specificly pouring rain
24. I'm paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
26. I need money right now.
27. I love sushi.
28. I sometimes talk really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.
30. I have semi-long hair .
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas .
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs.
35. I have a twin.
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
40. I know how to do cornrows.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
45. I have cheated on significant other.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular.
49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone. (sometimes)
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my LJ
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've had the cops called on me before.
74. I bite my nails sometimes
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
76. I'm not allergic to anything deadly- BEEES
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger....
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex esp. when they are really good looking.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I enjoy country music.--occasionally
89. I love all my friends.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.---better than dominos :)
91. I watch ^SPANISH soap operas whenever I can.
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.
99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving
101. Had a crush on somebody you've never met.
102. Kissed someone you knew you shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost"
111 I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville. And I think that tekken is the rockingest game in rockville.
112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I desperately want people to respect me but it rarely happens.
116. I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am bisexual.
118. I think scottish accents are very attractive.
119. I could spend an entire day on the computer with the occasional potty & food breaks
120. I think George W. Bush is not only a horrible president, but really annoying as well. - not to this extreme but somewhat
121. I have never been this happy with my life and content in this skin.
122. I have no problem downloading Mp3's for free
123. I adore scarves.
124. I am obsessed with Harry Potter
125. I have been in love with someone that I couldn't have
126. I turn completely innocent statements and words into sexual jokes as often as possible.
128. I am a vegeterian-- i want to be!

:) hot damn

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 19:39:40 GMT

im gonna right a long journal entry that im gonna be a huge hypocrit about and ill prob contradict myself 8 times

im really upset today and yesterday for who knows why and its not pms as laura always keeps asking me "oh erin i bet its that time of the month" and im like no no its not why cant i be upset and just not be hyper for once and maybe one day not be happy and then its automatically pms or im depressed i just wasnt in the mood to be hyper last night i was so tired im always tired on a friday after a week of sports and school its long and tiresome to everyone

friday in health i walked over to matt g and they were taling about who he hangs out with to jess straus and this kid harry who were in his health group and he was like erin whose your group and i said i dont have one sure i have closer friends but i dont have one specific group im labeled to like the frutacious five or whatever cause i think thats stupid... all i ever wanted to be up until about 7th grade was popular i never had a "group" till 5th grade that didnt last very long and that was liz linds alex twins and me and that was great but then i realized thats what i always fought against when i was younger i could never seem to find a group of people who were willing to let me in there group so when i finally found one i was just another mean person who wouldnt let other people "in" our group and thats why im not in a group... groups just end up excluding people and i hate that cause thats the worst feeling of all the worst and im so sick of people getting mad at me for saying sorry or saying that im nice becasue if i was fucking nice why arent people nice back? why dont people give me equal respect that i give others im so sick of it i try so hard to keep my friends because i dont want to lose any of the friends i have now but they dont seem to try hard back not at all and i dont know how to react cause i still try i still want their friendship but i guess they dont i would much rather them say it to me its so much easier than me wasting my time and breathe or thought on someone

every morning ashleigh togher will ask me to do something fo rher or to go to the cafeteria with her and we always do what she wants to and i never back down cause if i dont do it she'll get whiny and upset so i just go with the flow and i get nothing in return

i told eleanor a package would come before thanksgiving and it wont and its so anoying cause i know if i moved away eleanor would have sent me 10 packages by now i know for a fact she would have i feel bad

and im always crying cause i miss 8th grade so much and i miss cav addie, amy, eleanor, scott, tim, steve, ron etc everyone and it sucks cause people are like arnt you over that yet? and im not i lost eleanor and addie two of my best friends addie being my first friend ever in allendale and shes not coming next weekend and scott came to school the other day and i saw him and i was crying in the bathroom first period its just so annoying i cant get over it i miss it so much i miss them so much and nobody else seems to miss anything i feel so alone and like i cant relate and its stupid cause people were like oh amy im gonna miss you oh addie im gonna miss you oh so and so oohhh im gonna miss senora hayyy yeah right nobody cares

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 03:02:52 GMT

i was talking to mike today, and yesterday, a lot lately. its nice, i like being closer with him. he told me that rachel (gf) wants to become bf with me haha and like take me shopping and have sleepovers stuff like that. its pretty cool actually :) im excited. so i walked by mike today and he was like erin come here and rachel and her friend lauryn and some other girl i forget her name were like erin! were taking you shopping and were gonna do your make up and were gonna have a big sleepover, and its gonna be so fun and stuff!" and yeah me and mike just had a finger war like middle finger war. haha i won trish has taught me some great moves hahaha props to trish... SO ITCHAYYY and so im really excited to be close with my bro and i think mike and rachel are gonna be together for a while. they seem so happy and good for eachother you know? shes nice and hes like a good kid in terms of not smoking/drinking which is really surprising with my familys history for the males and hes good yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3 fun

SCHOOOL ahh science im doing bad like C+ bad and gahh im getting a B+ in math i think and math is so easy and im mad gahidfjoawesdkf cause math is so easyearjkqeoijfs and kdjsafoiqwejasf

cant touch this

peace

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 20:05:12 GMT

i dont like high school

im so sick of my friends. none of them are the same there so different, all of them. i dont feel close to anyone except christine, i have 4 classes with christine and shes the nicest person to me. and i love her for it, sarah i never see but shes nice to me too. the soccer team is full of mean girls who have no respect for one another. jackie, allison, dyana, pam, danielle b, and kaitlyn are the only people who are actually nice to everyone and respect me. everyone else is so selfish and doesnt pass, wont help with equipment then me dyana and kaitlyn get stuck EVERYDAY with equipment, i made a CHARt with their names saying what day they have equipment BUT NO they cant help can they?

then trish is in a bad mood half the time, complaining that none of us are serious about soccer and all we do is joke around. and then next day shes with annie on the ground laughing her ass off. and when shes in a bad mood idk what to do i usually try to help her or give her space but she gets mad no matter what she takes everything out on me and annie.

johns being an ass too, he was supposed to go to the dance with me or amanda and just decides to go with jenna?

ted lesher, mary, john, sammy, mary nayden when i see her, and christine are the only people that are truly nice to me.

and i get jealous of lindsay adn how she puts all these people on her profile and is like BFF and I LOVE YOU MWUAHSS and then at basketball on sunday shes like erin you are one of my best friends blah blah and she doesnt show it, liz i dont see. amanda doesnt care. and eleanor i miss her so much, i wish addie was here she could calm me down as well as eleanor

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on a happier note were going to the finals for soccer, damn straight

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 01:27:18 GMT

trish told TL that she thinks i like him a little

gAH I LOVE HAT KID what a kid ow ow

skifree11: ill lend you m y jean skirt

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i need a jean skirt for spirit tomorrow! if anyone can lend me one i would really appreciate it!! thanks!! :-D

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<3 hes a junior <3 but a cute one and he hasnt had many gf and he is going to homecoming with christina gomez who is really good at soccer and relaly cool!!

<3TL

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Wed, 06 Oct 2004 23:01:29 GMT

OK so my journal is here to let my feelings out RITHT?dafdkf RIGHT? well i really miss sarah and its pissing me off that shes gone, and i really miss eleanor like so fucking much and addie its so gay and i want to be at brookside. i miss being close to mary and john langan 3rd period pbl was so much fun and it just sucks, i never see either of them casue they are in all honors and i never see liz or lindsay and i just dont want to lose anyone

dkajkldfjewoqiejflaskdfj im so sick of people making fun of my clothes and wardrobe. im made fun of all the time for everything i wear cause its not what "EVERYONE ELSE" wears... SORRY ok? SORRY that i cant afford to go to stupid designer places and even abercrombie and fitch and i shop at thrift stores SORRY, i used to think i was a loser for that but now i love it and i would hate to be like everyone else i dont want my mom have to work even more than she does to be able for me to shop at a nicer place. im fine with hammy downs from my brother and cousins and even going to consignment shops but the rest of the world makes fun of me for it. its so annoying, and people wonder why i have such low self esteem

SORRY for the rambling about stupidity but im just upset

on a happier note, i had a really good dinner :) and im going to sleep NOW at 7:30 prob but im going to my room NOW so yes cya kids

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 02:11:31 GMT

quote of the night

"ehh my ear is bleeedding ehhh" ashleigh togher

YEAH i really miss avalon and i really want to surf and kris karl isnt that bad of a guy :) and mary houlihan is a really cool kid that i really missed and i saw her today and yesterday and im really happy. i miss christie we had so much fun together. SOCCER CONTROLS MY LIFE EGAD! but its fun :) i want to do a a a a uhhh whats it called.... IDK I DONT REMEMBER no i do i want to do a survey hah wow kris karls pretty cool but hes such a manslut and he said that me mary and ashleigh were the 3 coolest girls in town tonight and like TINA O and all four of the chelseas were there and kristin macri and yeah WOWIE

peace

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 21:25:34 GMT

i really like the song bombs over baghdad by outkast. i discovered it when my cousin meg let me borrow her outkast cd. yeah its good stuff.

soccer! soccer soccer soccer! so much of it! well if you dont know i made the freshman team there were no cuts. preseasons wasnt that bad but we did run a lot. in total we ran 16 miles in 5 days it was nuts! i did well in the long distance like 2 miles in 16 mins and run as much as you can in 12 mins and 1.5 miles in 10 mins... i did well in all of those like 3rd or 4th but in sprints i was always like 7 or 8th. im really proud of myself though cause i did a lot better than i thought i was so stressed out about tryouts! and i barely ran over the summer. yeah so thats my story. Oh and ashlee burt made vasity with danielle schulman as in TIGER schulmans daughter.

freshman team:
Captains: Pam K.- USR, Ashley L. -Allendale, and myself

USR- Trish, Annie, Xanthi, Merideth, Dyana, Lina, Ashley M, lindsey s

HHK- Kaitlyn

Allendale - Julianne, Jackie L., Allison, Kristen S., Danielle B., Kelsey,

our coach is nuts! yeahhh so i gotta go pack illl be seeing yas cause im going to the beach tomorrow with jen and the twins so im PHSYCED! woop!

peace out cub scout :)